Vent Your Little Heart Out!!!

Marshall wrote:

Hard Gay wrote:

Justin wrote:

neighboors woke me up this morning with thier damn kitchen light

bastards...

Justin, when did you move in next to Marshall?

I see what you did thar.
I enjoyed it.

apparently last night in my sleep

Beware fucking wall of text rant.

So, Brentt and I have been trying to make plans to see each other for like a month now, but it keeps failing. He's always working inconvenient hours, has other plans, or is too tired. Well, finally we were able to make plans for today. I had saved up a nice chunk of change and made reservations at this super expensive restaurant he loves. I even went out and bought something cute to wear for the occasion.

Well, earlier this week he broke his glasses... and he's like blind without them so getting new ones is important. So he and his mom (because she was paying) had made an appointment to go get some... for today. At 5:00. Our dinner reservation was 6:00.

So he told me it wasn't going to happen, and I was understanding. I mean, today was his only day off this week so its the only chance he had.

But I asked him if getting together afterwards and going to a quicker dinner was an option... and he said that his mom would probably want to hang out, and he owed her that for buying him glasses.

Again, I understood.

Well, today finally came around and he went and quickly got his glasses, and came home right after. So here I was full of hope that I might still be able to see him. I asked him if he wanted to go out to dinner or a movie tonight.

He said no, because this is the "first day off" (meaning, the first day off that he didn't make plans with friends) he's had in awhile. He just wants to relax.

He also said that he's scheduled to work the weekend of this party that I'm having, the one he told me he'd be able to come to, because his request off was rejected. Apparently a bunch of people at work are requesting that particular weekend off for some reason.

When he told me that I outright asked him if he's trying to avoid me. He said he's not, and he says he wants to see me... but I just cant fully believe him. It seems like EVERY time I try to make plans with him he's too tired or busy, and if I try to make plans for a time relatively far in advance he miraculously already has plans or agrees to my plans and then something "comes up".

On one hand I know he wouldn't do that to me, if he didn't want to see me he would just say no to the plans... right? But on the other hand, seeing each other has NEVER been half this hard before. I just cant fully bring myself to believe that he's being entirely truthful with me.

/end.

Wall o' text crits you for 55k.

i want to go back to the drugs and the pain and the drinking. none of it seems worth it to keep throwing myself out there to have people attack me like i'm a wounded bunny and they are starved dogs. make sure it all works this time, no going to the hospital. i could go buy a new knife, again, and it would all be ok - this time. it just all sounds so comforting to have pain, and then nothing. that short burst of pain would make it all just so worth it. if i really want to get better than why i am going back to the blade? gods i hate it all. most people wouldn't notice if i just disappeared. no one really seems to care that much about it. everyone who i put into my life and take the time to make my life about has been turning on me. how can i face all of the shit of that stupid fucking assault from when i was 15 without a support? i want to just go rip of jakes balls. he's not man enough to have them. he destroyed my mentality and then ran away to the military, and now everyone who i try to let near i fuck with and i'm left with no one, alone. financially it's ripping me to the core too. i have to deal with all this debt when he's the one who did all of the crimes. fucking better, even if it went to court, he would probably come out clean. i want him to admit it, i want people to know what a piece of shit he really was. maybe he's better, but he shouldn't have the sunshine and rainbows when he killed mine. gods fuck i just want to do something. the blade, the drugs, the alcohol - something. fuck

People at work suck at scheduling. (or schedule like dicks.)
Shoes are fucking stupid.
I hate price change.
Hurr.
I'm a hur dur.
Hurr.


Fuckin' Ridiculous.

Marshall wrote:

People at work suck at scheduling. (or schedule like dicks.)
Shoes are fucking stupid.
I hate price change.
Hurr.
I'm a hur dur.
Hurr.


Fuckin' Ridiculous.

Sounds like a shitty day, wanna chill and play Little Big Planet?

I promise, once you get that cheetah car going, nothing else will matter.

I missed my ortho appointment today.
Oops.
Also, closing sucks.

Marshall wrote:

Also, closing sucks.

My life right now.
Fuck, I don't want to go to work today.
Fuck fuck ugh fuck.

I lost my damn Pokewalker at work.
Fuckin thing fell off my belt loop, or the belt loop connector broke/came unscrewed.

I must be the king of losing shit.
I feel fucking retarded.

Ouch Marshall, make sure and check the lost and found.

Sad thing is I saw like that exact same thread on /v/ earlier today.

=(

I guess.
I'll probably end up being that guy and I'll go and buy HeartGold.

Marshall, if you get another one, somehow attach it to your keychain, I think I'm going to do that, since I plan on taking mine to work as well.

I'm just going to leave the damn thing in my pocket, instead of attaching it to my belt loop.

Marshall wrote:

I'm just going to leave the damn thing in my pocket, instead of attaching it to my belt loop.

Make sure its a deep pocket; I've lost many a thing when they've slid out of my pocket when I've sat down and stood back up. Maybe a very long key-chain on your belt inside a very deep pocket.

I keep mine in my apron pocket, the same one that I keep my cellphone in. (because I habitually don't put trash in that one out, I use the other one. Not gonna throw my Pokewalker in the trash. lol.)

Actually, my khaki work pants have a very, very small second pocket inside the main pocket, and it's the perfect size for my pokewalker. I have to actually try to get it out.

It's cold and windy and I'm expected to go outside and do yard work.

OPEN YOUR EYES, I SEE THAT YOUR EYES ARE OPEN.
WEAR NO DISGUISE FOR ME, COME INTO THE OPEN.
WHEN IT'S COLD OUTSIDE, AM I HERE IN VAIN?
HOLD ON TO THE NIGHT, THERE WILL BE NO SHAME!
ALWAYS, I WANT TO BE WITH AND MAKE BELIEVE WITH YOU
AND LIVE IN HARMONY, HARMONY OH LOVE!

MELTING THE ICE FOR ME, JUMP INTO THE OCEAN.
HOLD BACK THE TIDE I SEE, YOUR LOVE IN MOTION.
WHEN ITS COLD OUTSIDE, AM I HERE IN VAIN?
HOLD ON TO THE NIGHT, THERE WILL BE NO SHAME!
ALWAYS I WANT TO BE WITH YOU
AND MAKE BELIEVE WITH YOU
AND LIVE IN HARMONY, HARMONY

OHHHH LOVE~

ALLLLLLLLLLLLWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYS

So I was excited last night when I picked up my paycheck to see it was the biggest one I have gotten yet, $250, cha-ching. (reminder: I get paid weekly. not bi-weekly. lol.)

I deposit it, expecting $35 to go away because my gym membership had been charged to my account before I expected it to thus overdrafting me.

Well... I look at my account and have $90 left. Ninety fucking dollars. Out of $250. So I look at my account to see that I had been charged ONE HUNDRED FORTY DOLLARS in overdraft fees.

Just fees. I only actually overdrafted like $13.

And when I look at what caused those fees... they were things i swear to fucking god had CLEARED before the gym payment. But no. They put they gym payment though, and then all these little things, causing four tiny overdrafts instead of one big one.

Now, I understand that the bank puts pending payments through biggest to smallest. Thats not the issue here. When I looked at my online banking the day before the gym membership was charged to my account those small payments where listed as pending. Then the day the gym membership had been charged to my account it showed all those little ones as having already being cleared, and then the gym membership being the only thing pending and overdrafting me.

But then the bank was apparently like "lololollol oops wait, we're going to redo this bs. BAM $140 IN FEES."

So I called the bank and talked to a guy on the phone for awhile and he was like "TCF won't reverse any fees unless its due to bank error blah blah blah"

But then I started to wear him down a bit and he started to seem sympathetic. And I was all like "$140, thats both of my student loan payments for this month..." and he's like "What would you like me to do, Ms. Parker?" and then.... I whipped out the tears, and was like "Anything you can, please..."

And he reveresed $70 of the fees.

Ding.

Being a woman ftw.

DAMN YOU AND YOUR VAGINAS

I am so TIFFANY I could cactus myself right now.

T_T

Justin wrote:

DAMN YOU AND YOUR VAGINAS

Vagina. Not plural. I only have one, just for the record. lol.

i was referring to women in general... but you know

also xander is obviously emo because he plays a paladin

therefore he is no longer unique

My father passed away this morning.

Don't pity me but understand if I'm very sad or unhappy for a while.